Convincing Yourself That You Deserved The Abuse Is Destructive

I have tried to convince myself that I deserved to be abused. I tried to figure out a way that I deserved it and no one else does. I never wanted to see another person be abused, so I tried to convince myself that I was more rotten than anyone else. This has caused me to feel worthless and useless. I have convinced myself that I do not deserve to be considered a person. This is what I tried to do to help make myself feel better that I got mistreated and abused and bullied. This type of thinking does not heal, it destroys you. Many of you may have thought like this. If any one of you have ever struggled with this or are struggling, I would like to pray for you.

Rodney Calmes